IT WAS A GOOD FIGHT...

The plan of going to the audition's venue worked well. I arrived at about 8:30 AM. The line was sooooo long that we have to go around the eviction hall before we can get in.

At first it was rainy and eventually got sunny at about 9 / 10 in the morning. It was so hard. Init, lamig at ngawit blues ang kalaban.

It was already lunch time and dahil I was all by myself there, I can't eat. Baka hindi na ako makabalik sa pwesto ko. And because I really want what I am doing, I eased everything. The hunger, sun's heat and the pain of standing the whole time. Grabe! Ang hirap! Sobrang hirap!

While feeling those, I can't stop crying inside. Ang hirap talaga puta! Hindi ko na lang pinahalata sa mga nakapaligid sa akin. I just kept on telling myself that everything will be alright, those are what it takes to reach my dream so I must take it. I am already there, I will do my best and I can do it!

Pahirapan pa kumuha ng application form dahil nag-aagawan ang lahat. After a long time waiting for a free turn, I was then able to get one for my self. Grabe talaga! Sobrang hirap... Medyo na-relieve ang pagod ko nung nakakuha na ako ng application form. I filled it up while standing, and take note nagtutulakan ang mga nasa paligid ko!... grabe! pasakit talaga!

The first page asks the basic infos about the applicant. On the second was 15 or 20 psychological questions and the last contains the contract to be signed by the audition masters if you are qualified.

The questions were "If you were rich...", "I am really afraid of", "My greatest fear is", "Most of the men / women...", "I was waiting for...", etc.

It was about 3:30pm when I got in front of the PBB Eviction Hall. The coordinators decided to have 2 more stations to lessen the number of applicants because it's already late. We were about 6 - 7,000, I think.

At the first station, we were asked to strike a pose to look at our registers on the screen. Thank God I passed! Lots did not... I was able to have my applicant number... It really felt sooo good having a number on my shirt. It's like all of my sacrifices were rewarded. I was number 02988.

After a very looong line, I finally came to the second station. I was again asked to pass and get to the final station. Marami ring natanggal. They based it I think on the answers we've written on the application form...

While waiting for my turn at the final station, I heard it was now Direk Laurenti Dyogi who will choose those who will pass... Before I got in, something made me think... "Ito na ba yun?"... "Totoo bang 'eto na at nasa final station na ako?..."

I began to feel nervous... I started praying, asking God for some help. I told myself that this is already what I am longly waiting for.

I got inside of the final station together with 6 other applicants at about 5:15pm... and it's really Direk Laurenti Dyogi in there! We were asked to strike a pose and make a walk forward altogether. After that, We were just two on our batch who were asked to introduce and tell them about ourselves..

I said I can sing and dance... (I was asked to sing and let me continue my speaking). I also told them that I am a very optimistic person. One who always look at the bright side of everything. Simple yet unique in sense, jolly, a god-fearing and loving person, a person who fights for what he think is right and finally, one who never stops dreaming his dream until he gets it. A person who will do whatever it takes to reach his dreams.

The room then become silent for a moment... It's like the time has stopped...

Direk Laurenti Dyogi and the other members of the panel deliberated.

Unfortunately, I did not make it. That was how my today's quest for stardom has ended.

Normally, I got so sad but after awhile, I realized that even if I was not in, nagawa ko kahit hanggang sa huling parte lang... at doon, hinangaan ko ang sarili ko maging ng mga taong mahal ko... " 'TANG INA! kaya ko pala!... "

I got home very proud of myself bringing all the memories and lessons I've learned. And those I will treasure always to help me face all the challenges that will pass my life. I did my best and it will always be enough.

Ipagpapatuloy ko pa rin ang aking paglalakbay patungo sa tagumpay na inaasam... Mananatili akong masikap, matatag at mapag-pasensya upang makamit ito.

Hindi man ngayon, baka bukas o sa susunod na pagkakataon okay na... patuloy pa rin akong aasa...

Yeah! Let a new quest for stardom begin!... hehe! ; )